You're what keeps me believin the world's not gone dead,
Strength in my bones put the words in my head.
When they pour out to paper.
It's all for you.
Cause that's what you do.
No more fighting.
It is only a waste of our time, ohh cause soon we'll be leaving.
Will this strength still be mine?
Our computers infested with a nasty obnoxious virus that I cant figure out. GOOSHSHHHHHH one day Im so effing happy and the next Im not. Why cant it just be a steady flow of upbeat-ness? I mean if you think about it, you could die at any second… and so you should just cherish every second that you have here. Keeping that mindset just makes me feel like shit because I’m the queen of “I’ll do it later”. Yep, procrastination is my middle name… but I guess Its just cuz I work well under pressure;) But honestly… if life is so special and important… then why do people take advantage of it sooo much? If life is so short and mysterious… then why do people waste their time not liking each other?… like why don’t I get along with allison?… I guess that wasent my choice.she decided she didn’t like me first… then I just figured… what the heck?!- might as well even it out. Lol… but see… that thought process took time, and time means care. Right? … Like when someone dosent talk to you, or think about you… then you know they honestly don’t care about u- because they don’t take time for anything. But if someone cares they will talk shit and write about it like Im doing right now;)… and so ultimately if someone DOSENT CARE then they don’t hate you… because they don’t waste their time or energy for any sort of feeling tward you. OOOO New goal!!! - People who I don’t like (hates a harsh word): Allison (friend turned snob) , Sarah (backstabbing slut), Kelly (critical, selfcentered prick… not to mention you DO look like a frosh. In HS..and you think you‘re the shit), Blake (he drew a penis on my face at a party once), Ryan (not to mention he cheated on me, but he lies about me), Kate (yeah your nice to me but its fake and ur a rude b-word behind my back), charles darwin (that 5 page paper about you that I had to write kicked my butt and I hated every second of it).
…k, so maggie “dislikes” all of these people. What’s funny is the people who I have good reasons for disliking… are the people who’ve changed and influenced me into the person I am. They’re the people who I spend the most time having mental battles about when I have nothing better to do (like right now), and they’re the people I’ll remember when I get older…. Hmm I feel a song coming on:
I tear my heart open,
I sue myself shut,
And my weakness is
That I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real,
I tear my heart open just to feel.
SEEEEE the people who I hate are the people who have hurt me the worst… because I cared the most about them. They leave scars (I dislike them)…and I think about it all the time because I cared about them (my weakness)….and being sad just reminds me of the past. Now at the end of the song theres a part that goes:
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
Go fix yourself
I cant help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I’m sorry but I’ve got to move on with my own life
….now I’ve got to move on with MY OWN life. Life happens once, and you don’t have time to wait around for people who are just going to make you hurt worse… you just need to move on because it’s YOUR life, and as long as you want it to get better, you just need to forget about it!
AHHH done ventingJ Now I guess I know what the heck Im doing… sometimes it takes some writing to make you feel better about yourself… and to figure out where the heck you fit into all of the confusion. K, soooo now that I’m making a conscious effort to move on with my own life and I know what it takes (not caring)…. Here are some GOOD LYRICS:
Step inside, walk this way
You and me babe, Hey, hey!
Love is like a bomb, baby, c'mon get it on
Livin' like a lover with a radar phone
Lookin' like a tramp, like a video vamp
Demolition woman, can I be your man?
Razzle 'n' a dazzle 'n' a flash a little light
Television lover, baby, go all night
Sometime, anytime, sugar me sweet
Little miss ah innocent sugar me, yeah
Hey!
C'mon, take a bottle, shake it up
Break the bubble, break it up
Pour some sugar on me
Ooh, in the name of love
Pour some sugar on me
C'mon fire me up
Pour your sugar on me
Oh, I can't get enough
I'm hot, sticky sweet
From my head to my feet yeah
Listen! red light, yellow light, green-a-light go!
Crazy little woman in a one man show
Mirror queen, mannequin, rhythm of love
Sweet dream, saccharine, loosen up
You gotta squeeze a little, squeeze a little
Tease a little more
Easy operator come a knockin' on my door
Sometime, anytime, sugar me sweet
Little miss innocent sugar me, yeah
Take a bottle, shake it up
Break the bubble, break it up
Pour some sugar on me
Ooh, in the name of love
Pour some sugar on me
C'mon fire me up
Pour your sugar on me
Oh, I can't get enough
I'm hot, sticky sweet
From my head to my feet yeah
[guitar solo]
You got the peaches, I got the cream
Sweet to taste, saccharine
'Cos I'm hot, say what, sticky sweet
From my head, my head, to my feet
Do you take sugar? one lump or two?
Take a bottle, shake it up
Break the bubble, break it up
Pour some sugar on me
Ooh, in the name of love
Pour some sugar on me
C'mon fire me up
Pour your sugar on me
Oh, I can't get enough
Pour some sugar on me
Oh, in the name of love
Pour some sugar on me
Get it, come get it
Pour your sugar on me
Ooh
Pour some sugar on me
Yeah! Sugar me!
- that’s so hagg lake material!!!
K and also I always complain like none other about school… and since its almost over and I’m in a better mood… Im going to list what I love about each period of the day:
Morning - getting to school and seeing friendsJ … making some pointless small talk about how tired we are and what we’re doing that weekend
1st period - Mr. Ferguson - Sitting by Allie and somehow being hyper as HECK… and wow, I cant believe I actually almost kind of like Victorian era poetry… lol, go me! OH and “fergie” lets me and allie do just about whatever we want… that class is an easy A (knock on wood) and all we ever do is go to the library and laugh at sweet little fergies helpless jokes. Haha.
2nd period - Mr. Cram - I get “5’s” on all of my worksheets, but I never really do them… and he lets me “go to the bathroom” as much as I want;)…. Oh and I sit right next to Chelsea and I love herJ
3rd period - Advisory (skare) - Mr.Skare trying to gain conrol of a high school classroom is quality… lol, almost better then like a MADTV skit;)… kenz and I always “go to the library”… and leave for lunch;) hehe
4th period - Wrinkle- Computer room means checking email… Mr. Wrinkle’s really laid back… and only gets pissed when we play with the digital camera… which is rare;)
Lunch- Lunch means food, food means happiness. And the occasional wrestling matches are fun;)
5th period- Mr. H’s aide. I sit there… and go on the comp. Sometimes… its fun because it’s like another break after lunch;)
6th period- Counseling center aide… I get to hang out with mr.Y and gina, they both rule… and running stuff to classrooms is fun cuz get to see friendsJ
2:45 bell- SCHOOLS OUT!!!J
…k really guys, I know like nobody in their right mind read all this, but if you did you’ve won 4385776548674076 dollars, so IM me and let me know. I love you all. Muah!
~mags
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I was just listening to my mom talk to my sister nora on the phone... shes like "Well let's see... Maggie was born in.... umm.... 19.... 19... 70.... uhhh..... " Im like... "MOM!... 1988!!! GOSH!" lol.... I never wanna lose my memory when I get old. Hmmm let's see.... school was kicking my butt until I got my economics project done today durring 4th period:)... I feel a huge weight lifted from my shoulders!!!... I just basically have to study for English vocab.... gosh vocabs a b*tch. lol... hmmm....